Sunday, 14 November 2010

Hat Trick

Unless your mental health is extremely stable, November in Ljubljana will make you go crazy sooner or later. The weather has been totally depressing the last couple of weeks and I had a couple of crises already, but I'm handling it for now. But there's another thing, one nut I can't seem to break and it's so damn frustrating ...

Yes, I'm talking about my job. Sometimes I feel like it's killing me, it's killing my spirit. OK, so I just started working on a new project and it does seem more interesting than what I've been doing before, but the mere fact that I gotta get up in the morning and go to work and stay there for 8 hours a day is making me feel so restricted. I'm tired Monday through Friday and I sleep half the weekend. On the other hand, this comes handy as an excuse for why I can't do stuff. I can't do sports, I'm too fucking tired. Clean the flat? No way, I can't even move. Do something creative - are you kidding me, my creativity is as good as dead. So I'm torn between the desire to leave my job and start doing my own thing or to stay and let it slowly kill me in exchange for financial stability. The way I put it here, it's a no brainer. But it's actually more complicated than that - or isn't it? I'd really appreciate some good advice on the subject. Virtual hugs are always very welcome, too.

If anyone's wondering, my hat is fake fur, of course.



(blazer: Zara - blouse: vintage - dress, earrings, shoes: H&M - faux fur hat: New Look - leg warmers: Calzedonia - tights: Filodoro - bag: Graceland - sunglasses: via eBay)

12 comments:

dressful.com said...

Since I don't recall you ever mentioning a single positive thing about your job, if I were you, I'd quit it without hesitation and try to start doing something I actually liked. Since it's hard to even keep a job these days, you should probably have a more or less exact plan what you'd do after quitting the job, but don't be discouraged by this. You write about being depressed and I think this job is damaging your health, so that's one more reason to find something new. "Not being able to do stuff" is no way to live (unfortunately I know this firsthand). P.S. This is not the only job in the world where you can have financial stability.

Eva M said...

Omg! Tale outfit je pa... omg omg omg! :D ♥
& I feel you. -.- Podobna situacija, sam da sem še vedno v šoli in niti čez vikende ne morem spat, ker se učim od jutra do večera. Sploh nimam časa za jogging, nakupovanje, kino, nič... :/
Ampak bo boljše. Bodmo optimisti :))

NinaSafada said...

uff, sej zdej eno čisto tako subjektivno mnenje, ampak...jaz bi definitivno dala odpoved...
sej je težko rečt, ker dandanes je že tko jeba s tem, pa ne vem zdaj kaj je zate najbolje, sem pa jaz taka oseba, ki mislim, da na tvojem mestu ne bi dolgo zdržala, no mogoče bi, ampak mislim, da bi slej ko prej želela pobegnit...
če gledaš iz tega stališča kaj je prav in kaj ne in kje je najmanj tveganja, se itak ne zdi najboljša ideja, da kar daš odpoved, po drugi strani pa zakaj celo življenje čutit bolečino v trebuhu in napetost v glavi, ko moraš zjutraj ustat in it v službo ki ti ne odgovarja...to je ubistvu še bolj grozno, ampak bo na miljone ljudi to prenašalo, ker mislijo, da itak ni druge možnosti in da bi bili neodgovorni, če bi hoteli nekaj spremenit...potem ni čudno, da zbolijo...
no, meni osebno se taki ljudje smilijo in mislim, da je kdaj pa kdaj cajt, da tut pustiš ta pravila za sabo pa nardiš neki zase...sem pa to jaz... :)

sicer pa...ful dober outfit! in točno take čevlje iščem prav zdej... :))

eelectroCutee said...

maybe you can stay for several months at your job until you have enough money to start your own bussiness.. :D
hope you find a solution soon.. xoxo

Style Porn said...

Hey, I always say as long as you're still getting dressed in the morning, you're not totally useless. I actually felt really similar when I started my job. It was too much. Long hours, no energy left for my personal life. And to be honest, I'm not sure what happened but I learned to cope. And also things got easier. It doesn't stay crazy busy all the time, and like working out, you get stronger and can deal with it eventually. I still don't feel as creative as I used to, but I guess that's the sacrifice I made. Just remember, it gets better!

nihrida said...

Se počutim enako ujeto in ne vem kako naprej. Upam, da ti uspe zrihtat na najboljše.

Outfit mi je všeč. Še posebej kapa/klobuk.

Lexy @ Quirky Explosion said...

Ah, the hat is SO fierce.

And I'm loving the colour! Powder blue is so yummy. Very Alice in Wonderland!

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hiven said...

love your tights! x hivennn.

Abi said...

Love your hat!

I'm sorry to hear about your dilemma. Maybe start your own thing on the side and look for a part-time job. Then that way you still have some financial stability while your business gets off the groud. A part-time job that you don't dislike as much as your current one. And in the event that you did, you'll only be spending half the time. All the best!

*hugs*

Marian said...

i hope you can something you enjoy more soon.
the shades are adorable
xx
marian.

Constance said...

Loving the fur hat! x

RvCSA said...

i love and enjoy your outfit posts, you have so many to experiment with :) keep on the good effort ;)